how to be not

a bad person
a bad person hurts people
hurts hearts
a bad person doesn't think of other people
just in herself
a bad person doesn't care of other people
and doesn't help
a bad person ignores her feelings, and the feelings of others
a bad person ignore her empathy
doesn't want to empathize
a bad person hurts because her indiference
and her indolence
a bad person is selfish and uses people
i hate bad persons
but sometimes i am


so i hate myself
in this precise moment
but then i remember
hate doesn't help for anything
so, with love, i tell to myself
"you lovely piece of shit, ignorant and selfish
you must change
you must be more grateful and also lonely
because you don't need to hurt people
to know your defects
to know some boundaries
but, it's true
without this mistake
you wouldn't admit
this horrorful part of you.
Without this mistake
you wouldn't know
how much you love her
and how much you have to learn
about love and care.

So
in the end
i thank
for having gone wrong
thank
for being this selfish
now i know
i dont want to be this in my life
anymore
and also
now i know
how to be not